Thankful

Just having a moment while I sit here at the computer, feeling my little sweet pea move around, realizing how incredibly blessed I am to have this precious gift from God. I am so thankful for this miracle growing inside me, although it is so hard for me to truly fathom the reality that there really is a living human being in there. Experiencing this makes me wonder, how do people who experience this same thing not believe in a Creator? The creation of a new life is truly a miracle, how can this come about any other way than what the psalmist says,

"I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there were none of them." Psalm 139:14-16

I am so thankful that I know the Creator of life, so thankful that I can put my trust and hope in Him. I am often overwhelmed by emotions, it is incredible to me the emotional attatchment of a mother to her child, I remember being surprised by that when I had the miscarriage, and as I sit here now I am acutely aware of it. My feelings for my boy are so strong, yet I haven't even met him yet. I know that when he is brought into this world, I will experience a whole new side to it, and I know the love I have for him will be so strong that it will be so hard to battle the fear and anxiety for his health and well-being, and ultimately his soul. Yet I am comforted by God's Word, which describes how intimately God knows my boy, and says that his days are already formed, God already knows exactly what is going to happen with his life. I don't have to worry because it is in the hands of the Creator of the universe.

Thank you God for this blessing, please help me to honor you and trust you with each day of his life, whatever your plan for him may be.